Thursday, February 28, 2008
THAT'S IT!!THAT'S IT THAT'S IT!
PHWEEETTTTTT!
muahahahaaa.
its finally all over.
and i've stil got my eyebags to grumble over.
then again
i'm just glad :)
i'm gonna turn in now.
had a great day today (x
BEAnns Muzzled --> 3:59 AM.
Monday, February 25, 2008
Monday, February 25, 2008
this is only HALF of ONE module.
there were tons of paper.
this once i felt the need to save trees.
the rough papers went missing when i needed them.
turned to white printing papers instead.
its one thing to write notes another to get it in!
today's paper was i would say
a Blur.
ThankGod once again.
gone through the impt parts
at the very last seconds
before stepping into the
intimidating cold hall.
my eyes have held out strong.
it must have been the 30+++ hours
that caused the eyebags to be visibly seen.
at least i managed an hour last night =\
Damn,
i'll be sleeping the next few days post-exam
making sure it disappears.
they were talking about why i looked different.
and realised it was my eyes.
i saw theirs too.
hahaha.
it good not to be the only one.
hawhaw
Hokay.
ONE LEFT.
phweetphweet.
and i'll be flying kites!
got everything all planned out.
included is the ultimate exercise regime.
I HAVENOT utilised the gym nor
made use for the conveniently located
ponggolpark.
its time ta get into that rusty runningshoes.
all the excess storage of faty acids and glycogen
around my waist.
i dont need those love handles.
muaythai here i come!
catching a glimpse of the AcademyAwards.
JohnnyDepp is my all time favourite.
though he seemed to forget about his hair.
but hawhaw. He rocks my socks x)
okay.
that's all.
BEAnns Muzzled --> 10:17 PM.
Friday, February 22, 2008
going without sleep for 36 Straight Hours
is a bloody Killer.
cant imagine how i managed to survive through that
and sit for exam with cranial cramps.
i can pull out the hammer from my head.
hurts so bad.
its been coffee and chicken essence diet.
no not really.
not forgetting all the unhealthy snacks and munchies
to stretch my eye lids wide.
Sigh.
this is the part.
where it keeps repeating in the head to not
keep up with all the last min study crap.
but then again.
its not likely to get the urge ta study
3months before.
okay. still.
but guess a decent time will be 3wks to amonth before.
anyway.
3 papers downn.
today's paper was by far the best.
2 more to goooooooooooooooooo.
Biochem and MicroB.
feeling the nerves.
just this heavy load on me ta produce results.
moreover, its not studying for myself.
studying to meet the expectation set upon me.
Pressure Much. =\
well.
anxious for the hols.
its cominggggg.
Nearing.
hawhaw.
Anticipating.
Brain juice are almost used up =S
Friday, February 22, 2008
going without sleep for 36 Straight Hoursis a bloody Killer.
cant imagine how i managed to survive through that
and sit for exam with cranial cramps.
i can pull out the hammer from my head.
hurts so bad.
its been coffee and chicken essence diet.
no not really.
not forgetting all the unhealthy snacks and munchies
to stretch my eye lids wide.
Sigh.
this is the part.
where it keeps repeating in the head to not
keep up with all the last min study crap.
but then again.
its not likely to get the urge ta study
3months before.
okay. still.
but guess a decent time will be 3wks to amonth before.
anyway.
3 papers downn.
today's paper was by far the best.
2 more to goooooooooooooooooo.
Biochem and MicroB.
feeling the nerves.
just this heavy load on me ta produce results.
moreover, its not studying for myself.
studying to meet the expectation set upon me.
Pressure Much. =\
well.
anxious for the hols.
its cominggggg.
Nearing.
hawhaw.
Anticipating.
Brain juice are almost used up =S
BEAnns Muzzled --> 10:28 PM.
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
i screwedd my paper x((
omg.
of all times.
i lost it.
ARGH.
so pisst with myself.
i dont know what came over me.
Damn.
so screwwed.
helphelphelp.
HOW NOW BROWN COW.
AAAArrrghhhh.
i can scream my head off.
Next paper am so gunning for it.
sheesh
can't believe it.
Whatever la.
no mood ta do anything now.
What a crappy day x((
-sniffs
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
i screwedd my paper x((omg.
of all times.
i lost it.
ARGH.
so pisst with myself.
i dont know what came over me.
Damn.
so screwwed.
helphelphelp.
HOW NOW BROWN COW.
AAAArrrghhhh.
i can scream my head off.
Next paper am so gunning for it.
sheesh
can't believe it.
Whatever la.
no mood ta do anything now.
What a crappy day x((
-sniffs
BEAnns Muzzled --> 12:04 AM.
Monday, February 11, 2008
yawnnn
i needa catch up on sleep.
and stpid math.
yike.
it sucks waiting.
whatever it is for.
its a horrible feeling.
be it waiting for someone, waiting for transport,
waiting for a msg, waiting in line ta use the toilet.
blahblah.
so random.
soccer is keeping me company while i
finish copying the notes.
Gosh.
4 months of notes is hell when trying to
copy all at one shot.
been copying it since 3plus this afternn.
and i'm not done.
alil more to go x)
then i'm off to bed.
Monday, February 11, 2008
yawnnni needa catch up on sleep.
and stpid math.
yike.
it sucks waiting.
whatever it is for.
its a horrible feeling.
be it waiting for someone, waiting for transport,
waiting for a msg, waiting in line ta use the toilet.
blahblah.
so random.
soccer is keeping me company while i
finish copying the notes.
Gosh.
4 months of notes is hell when trying to
copy all at one shot.
been copying it since 3plus this afternn.
and i'm not done.
alil more to go x)
then i'm off to bed.
BEAnns Muzzled --> 12:30 AM.
Saturday, February 09, 2008
clearing the air.
Sometimes stupid things are said.
not thinking before actually opening
the mouth.
Damn.
wth man.
misunderstanding and all starts to happen.
omg.
cant believe to what extend it'll go to
until i heard it for myself.
to the person a headache
to the other party depression.
haiyo.
precisely why things should be said properly
first time around.
then all the shit wouldnt have happened.
haiyaaaaaaaa.
made it all better.
i think i've been mad lately.
anyway.
went to istana park for the FIRST time in mua life
after 19years.
saw the president and the wife like TONS of time.
so poor thing. they had to like..
i dunno.. keep going in and coming out.
it seems as though they were parading around
and flocks of pple just gathered and crowd around them
take pictures and all.
it was such a Sight.
hahahaa.
i just laughed.
i dunno.
its like his face is everywhere alr.
always on tv.
yet pple just run up to take pictures and all.
aiyo.
okay.
i should be more enthusiastic
but i'm not.
so too bad.
my mom's getting all worried and pisst about me.
haiyo.
i'm giving her such a headache.
oops.
okay. i'd just better be concentrating and studying alr.
its after cny.
time for Mugging!
Saturday, February 09, 2008
clearing the air.Sometimes stupid things are said.
not thinking before actually opening
the mouth.
Damn.
wth man.
misunderstanding and all starts to happen.
omg.
cant believe to what extend it'll go to
until i heard it for myself.
to the person a headache
to the other party depression.
haiyo.
precisely why things should be said properly
first time around.
then all the shit wouldnt have happened.
haiyaaaaaaaa.
made it all better.
i think i've been mad lately.
anyway.
went to istana park for the FIRST time in mua life
after 19years.
saw the president and the wife like TONS of time.
so poor thing. they had to like..
i dunno.. keep going in and coming out.
it seems as though they were parading around
and flocks of pple just gathered and crowd around them
take pictures and all.
it was such a Sight.
hahahaa.
i just laughed.
i dunno.
its like his face is everywhere alr.
always on tv.
yet pple just run up to take pictures and all.
aiyo.
okay.
i should be more enthusiastic
but i'm not.
so too bad.
my mom's getting all worried and pisst about me.
haiyo.
i'm giving her such a headache.
oops.
okay. i'd just better be concentrating and studying alr.
its after cny.
time for Mugging!
BEAnns Muzzled --> 1:26 AM.
Tuesday, February 05, 2008
my mind's been playing tricks on me.
this morning i jerked up
from my dream.
i was panting Heavily.
and my Heartbeat was beating So furiously.
i heard it in my Ear.
What a horrible experience.
it wasnt a nightmare of anything.
it was a premonition of my Death.
i dont want to say it here cus
it wont make sense. but ohwells.
its been the SAME scene in my dream
for 2 Consecutive Nights.
gee.
i was telling my parents about it.
and my dad was just saying.
just a comment. that
i should Rem to pray especially about it
and say the sinners' prayer everynight.
i think i will.
its so scary.
and no its not the tv.
cus' i've not been watching anything scary
or Whatsoever related to my dream.
but 3 days ago my mum was just telling me
to be prepared.
she always says that.
but just that day she mentioned
about rapture and persecution after that.
it was horrible.
the feeling in the dream was as though it
was so real.
i could feel myself sweating and my heart
Pounding.
i ask myself.
am i prepared for the end of the world
or if something bad were to happen to me
and i have to meet God.
my answer will be No, i'm not.
Sigh.
i Shouldnt be so unprepared.
Why.
why dont i feel the way i should.
its not that i dont rely on God or i
dont need Him.
i DO. everyday in my life i do.
but when it comes thinking about the end,
its like i just feel i'm not ready.
i havent done the best i could nor have
i done what i should be doing.
Bringing people to to God, being in the world but
Not of it, giving a hand and helping those in need.
i dunno.
its as though at the moment
my life can be classified as unfulfilled.
maybe sometimes i just take things so easy.
take for granted.
the dreams have been making me think.
what is the life i want to live.
the song goes :
This is my Desire,
to Honour You.
Lord with all my Heart,
i worship You....
Lord i give you my Heart,
i give you my Soul,
i live for You Alone,
Every breath that i take,
every moment i'm Awake,
Lord, Have Your Way in Me.
this is submission.
this is what i live for.
this is my purpose.
this is what i want to do.
thinking about it.
its hard with all the distractions.
Pray.
Pray.
Pray.
i dont feel like sleeping now.
although i'm dreadfully tired.
i'm gonna shower.
print my notes for tmr's prac exam
which i cant study for cus'
i'm way too tired.
Hopefully i can have a gd night's rest.
actually i'm terrified.
and yes, i'm gonna pray.
ever so often will i be doing that for quite some time.
Tuesday, February 05, 2008
my mind's been playing tricks on me.this morning i jerked up
from my dream.
i was panting Heavily.
and my Heartbeat was beating So furiously.
i heard it in my Ear.
What a horrible experience.
it wasnt a nightmare of anything.
it was a premonition of my Death.
i dont want to say it here cus
it wont make sense. but ohwells.
its been the SAME scene in my dream
for 2 Consecutive Nights.
gee.
i was telling my parents about it.
and my dad was just saying.
just a comment. that
i should Rem to pray especially about it
and say the sinners' prayer everynight.
i think i will.
its so scary.
and no its not the tv.
cus' i've not been watching anything scary
or Whatsoever related to my dream.
but 3 days ago my mum was just telling me
to be prepared.
she always says that.
but just that day she mentioned
about rapture and persecution after that.
it was horrible.
the feeling in the dream was as though it
was so real.
i could feel myself sweating and my heart
Pounding.
i ask myself.
am i prepared for the end of the world
or if something bad were to happen to me
and i have to meet God.
my answer will be No, i'm not.
Sigh.
i Shouldnt be so unprepared.
Why.
why dont i feel the way i should.
its not that i dont rely on God or i
dont need Him.
i DO. everyday in my life i do.
but when it comes thinking about the end,
its like i just feel i'm not ready.
i havent done the best i could nor have
i done what i should be doing.
Bringing people to to God, being in the world but
Not of it, giving a hand and helping those in need.
i dunno.
its as though at the moment
my life can be classified as unfulfilled.
maybe sometimes i just take things so easy.
take for granted.
the dreams have been making me think.
what is the life i want to live.
the song goes :
This is my Desire,
to Honour You.
Lord with all my Heart,
i worship You....
Lord i give you my Heart,
i give you my Soul,
i live for You Alone,
Every breath that i take,
every moment i'm Awake,
Lord, Have Your Way in Me.
this is submission.
this is what i live for.
this is my purpose.
this is what i want to do.
thinking about it.
its hard with all the distractions.
Pray.
Pray.
Pray.
i dont feel like sleeping now.
although i'm dreadfully tired.
i'm gonna shower.
print my notes for tmr's prac exam
which i cant study for cus'
i'm way too tired.
Hopefully i can have a gd night's rest.
actually i'm terrified.
and yes, i'm gonna pray.
ever so often will i be doing that for quite some time.
BEAnns Muzzled --> 12:49 AM.
Monday, February 04, 2008
hokay.
i'm back!
its school STUDY break for me.
Started at midnight.
i've got Prac exam on Tuesday.
ALL the BEST for your prac Exam tmr Jo! (x
Yay.
breakfast with papa tmr.
teehee.
i think i havent been getting enough sleep.
and its getting visible on my face.
the black eyebags and little tiny wrinkles!
Yikes.
i Just need to Sleep.
Finally the Projs are all over.
Aunt's back for Good from Armenia!
omg. see what i mean.
i was so blur the whole day and now
i'm so disorganised.
Gosh.
lack of sleep once again.
it kills Brain cells and sucks up Brain Juice.
hehe.
went cny shopping with mom.
hawhaw.
she's so aunty!
even i've gotta choose clothes for her =\
managed to find what i was looking for.
Yes!
uhm. now only cant think what shoes to wear.
and i need to Lose Body Fat!
i cant say lose weight cus it doesnt matter if i put on
cus of muscles.
but at least i wana see the muscles!?
haha.
okay.
my eyes are really getting tiredd.
i'm turning in.
Put up pictures another time.
-how do you know if its a Love or Like Thing -
TSKTSK.
Monday, February 04, 2008
hokay.i'm back!
its school STUDY break for me.
Started at midnight.
i've got Prac exam on Tuesday.
ALL the BEST for your prac Exam tmr Jo! (x
Yay.
breakfast with papa tmr.
teehee.
i think i havent been getting enough sleep.
and its getting visible on my face.
the black eyebags and little tiny wrinkles!
Yikes.
i Just need to Sleep.
Finally the Projs are all over.
Aunt's back for Good from Armenia!
omg. see what i mean.
i was so blur the whole day and now
i'm so disorganised.
Gosh.
lack of sleep once again.
it kills Brain cells and sucks up Brain Juice.
hehe.
went cny shopping with mom.
hawhaw.
she's so aunty!
even i've gotta choose clothes for her =\
managed to find what i was looking for.
Yes!
uhm. now only cant think what shoes to wear.
and i need to Lose Body Fat!
i cant say lose weight cus it doesnt matter if i put on
cus of muscles.
but at least i wana see the muscles!?
haha.
okay.
my eyes are really getting tiredd.
i'm turning in.
Put up pictures another time.
-how do you know if its a Love or Like Thing -
TSKTSK.
BEAnns Muzzled --> 2:02 AM.